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Created on 2008-01-08 22:35:35 (#14630792), last updated 2008-03-28

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Name:	Candace
Birthdate:	1989
Location:	Lawton, Oklahoma, United States

Bio

Its just another stretch of highway. I never asked for ordinary. Time and Time Change
If I rewrote this, it might just sound the same.

My name is Candace Lynne Jones and I live in Lawton, Oklahoma with my husband, Christopher Caton Jones and our black lab, Alex. I host at Chili's during the day at work at Fliptastic Gymnastics at night.

I don’t care if we’re different. I don’t want to be like you. The more different we are, the better. I don’t want to force you to be yourself. And I don’t want you to feel obligated to tell me things. Just know I’m here, no matter what. Whatever impression you’ve made on me, I can bet I’ll stick around. You may not like the way I act sometimes, or more like, how I react, but I’m not going to like some of the things you do and say. We wont agree all the time. And fights will happen. I'll more than likely piss you off on more than one occasion. I’m far from perfect, and I don’t expect anyone else to be perfect. I act rashly, and speak out of turn. But then at the same time, I have the tendency to bite my tongue when I need to be heard.

I ask too many questions, and have too few answers. I love to talk, and I love to sit back and listen. I hope for the best and tend to not see clearly. I am insecure with myself. Its my body. And my personality. You don’t wake up in the morning to look at me [Well, some of you do.]. Don’t tell me what to think of myself. Compliment me, sure, but don’t try to change my opinion. That has to be my own doing. And don’t try to change who I am. I’ll love you for you so if you cant love me for who I am, get the fuck out. I procrastinate, far too often. And day dream, far too much. I have a number of ambitions, and am taking no steps to get there. I'm not stuck up, just shy at first. I might judge you, but admit it, you’ll judge me back. I'm afraid of being alone in the dark...and of getting old. I have nightmares. Oh yeah, I'm incredibly stubborn. and I dont give up on what I want.

I’ve been cheated on. Lied too. Used. Abused. Had my highs. Had my lows. Broken hearts and had my heart broken. But you know, I’ve always come back up. Whether I’ve brought myself up, or my unwaveringly faithful friends have been there to guide me. I’ve made friends. I’ve lost friends. I’ve been with the in crowd. And the out crowd. I’ve seen a persons highs, and ive dealt with their lows. Drugs and suicide, been there and dealt with it. Now, im not saying I know everything, I’m just saying don’t underestimate me. I regret a lot of things, but its better to ask for forgiveness rather than permission. Right? And let me tell you, I'd do it a million times over for anyone to give me the chances I've given them.

I’m one of those people that likes things to be laid out in front of me, kind of like a black and white picture. Straight shot, no questions asked. But life isn’t like that, life is hard, cruel, and demanding. And I live by that. I have a few close friends that I trust with everything, and the rest is just some more fish in the sea. I guess you could say.

I hate alcohol, and I despise drugs even more. I don’t party. I keep my room clean. I color coordinate candy when I eat it and I work out when I’m bored. I’m harder on myself than you could ever think of being. And I’ll more than likely take your faults as my own. I care too much about others and not enough about myself and am far too forgiving.

I took gymnastics at Roses Gymnastics in Greenville, NC. Then took from New Bern Gymnastics, in New Bern. I danced all four years of my high school career. And danced with Terpsichore for three of those years. I’m a highly competitive person and hate when I cant do things. The things I do actually do, I’m pretty damn good at. But I hate trying new things because I fear failing.

I’ve had to work for everything that I have in my life, I haven’t known anything in life to be easy. and if you think you’re taking anything away from me, think again.